Pointless Walks......

Went to see Mary Poppins 2. It was fun. Was watching Luther and out of nowhere came a headache so terrible that it made me cry. I don't know what that was all about. I felt like I was in Scanners or something. It was one of those I used to get in my teeth. Awful. I might still have it as I took ALL the pills to make it go away. ALL of them and I am not sure they have worn off yet. Watched most of Wrestle Kingdom. Its was there. So far there is one match that I might watch properly because it may have been awesome. Other than that nothing. 4 people have read my fictional rant about work that I wrote yesterday. 4 !! Thats double my normal audience. I wonder if any of them live here in Canada? I can only assume not. There is a map where you can check but that's all over the place so I don't trust it. My computer just decided it didn't want to save what I am writing. It must be of very little value then. Guess I should stop. I almost forgot, Yesterday, for no ap...

Saturday. Didn’t manage to do anything apart from drink a very poor cup of coffee and get dressed. Got the bathroom scales and carried them to work because they are doing fat club again. Arrive to find that they are charging a £10 entry fee now. I’m out. I can’t afford that. They can still use my scales though. For free. Checked the rest of my emails and read what everyone had been up to yesterday. Nothing. The place is not closing and the people are not interesting.  8:38 – Listening to ‘Let’s Dance’ by Bowie. Lesser Bowie but still Bowie. Oh now it’s the Beach Boys singing Love Actually. Sounds better in Mono.  Don’t worry. This is not a list of songs. Who would do that? I hear a voice above all over voices. It has such a patronising tone. It is loud and patronising and has the wrong accent. I wish it would be quiet.  Other people seem to be arguing. That’s so much more entertaining ‘what a nightmare’. Listening to people slagging off a colleague. I wonde...

Another nothing day. Mainly spent the day taking tablets and babysitting which is ALWAYS fun. It feels like I am still on my Christmas holidays. I am not still on my Christmas holidays. Someone's social media post has poked the paranoia bone in me. Probs nothing but I will still worry about it. That's me. I am a worrier. My brain works too hard but doesn't seem to achieve anything. I can feel steam coming out of my pipes. Ate some fish fingers. Had some peas left so ate a pie. A dog and a duck are clapping. No one is coughing for five minutes and the light and dark are balanced. The silence is too good. Playing Infamous: First Light because it's like Spiderman which I have now sent back to Amazon because you can use them as a rental place if you get the timings right. It's ok. I think it's super short but I am still struggling to find my way to the end. Am desperate to like Tomb Raider but it's the worst of the recent 3 by quite some way. Don't...

Watching Derry Girls which is overacted but fun. Spending most of the time coughing at people who are coughing and then doing a bit more coughing. Feel like garbage. Annoyed by a seller on Ebay who has been 'really ill' and as a result not able to post my package. The number of people I have dealt with recently who have been 'really ill' or had 'a family emergency' is untold. I am super glad I have decided not to buy anything else ever again. It's super stressful. You have to worry about being in for the postman and or whatever random delivery company are bringing it. If its supposed to come on a day and you have that day off it kind of fucks up your life. I have no idea what I am rambling on about here. I have had too many co-codermol. I walk through the woods in the dark now. I am half awaiting my own horror story but usually all I get is people who can't be bothered to put their dogs on a lead and the other man with glasses and headphones that...

It lasted just over two days.  Then everything was back as usual. There was at some point a slight red in the air that kind of backed up the dust principle. Things like this had happened before. This was the first time we had gone this black though. It was the last for a very long time. So things returned to normal. In a week it was forgotten a there were bigger worries to make us aware of. The leader of the Western World had done something stupid again but not as stupid as we knew he was capable of. Then Mark Smith died and the nation went into mourning. Black bands were the new orange. Everyone wore them. Finally he was appreciated. My day rotated. School. Home. Gym. School. Home. Tea. Looking for the hot guys on CBeebies. Bed. Wine. Sleep. Nothing really changed. I just began to notice lots of drones in the air and I began to get stronger at the gym. Every day I went I found I needed to use a little bit more weight to get tired. Just a little bit. My muscles didn't see...

Well Happy New Year. Last night was, of course, terrible. Doing things just for the sake of doing things. A lone man smoking weed on a bench and blowing the smoke at a child. A dog running round uncontrolled because it's not your job to control your beast. The long way round for reasons. You can't see anything for trees and what you can see you miss because your phone is more interesting. There is a queue for banana bread. So anyhow its done and done and two of the four horrors that take place in winter are over. Two to go. Half way there then a bit of a rest. Looking out the window nothing has changed. The zombie apocalypse has not arrived but I can see it on the horizon. I had better stock up on beans. I have to go into the loft later to look for a box. This will either take forever or not. Maybe I will die up there looking and no-one will find my body for a year or so. My brain is sponge. Stop throwing questions at me. I am too old to answer them. I am too old ...

Bye then 2018. Thanks for having me. You were pretty shit. Mainly my fault. I failed in everything I tried to do. The only thing that's a bit better was the fact I wasn't drinking nearly as much. I had a fall or two and people kept buying me alcohol but it was much better. I am such an asshole when I drink. I am an asshole anyhow but x infinity symbol. 2019 is going to be pretty terrible due to ideas beyond my control. All I can do is try again. I will be ok for about 3 months then I will fall. I know myself. I am terribly boring in the way I work. You are glad you don't know me. I wish I didn't. Listening to the new Declining Winter album. It's very similar to the other one I have but he is singing in way that's a bit different. Hope it will grow on me. Waiting the five hours to the countdown and then might wrap up warm and go and watch things explode. There were lanterns on year. That was good. They didn't set any hotels on fire. It will be cold ...