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February 18th

Watched Elimination Chamber which the rest of the world seemed to enjoy more than me. It was ok. It wasn't 7 hours long so that gets it a pass.

Have since been playing Crackdown 3 and listening to podcasts about Elimination Chamber which the rest of the world seemed to enjoy more than me.

Didn't sleep very well last night mainly due to the dog being a dog. Feel a bit out of it so just waiting to go to sleep today and hoping I feel a bit better tomorrow. Ate my body weight in crap today so probs not.

It's weirdly cold but not cold. As ever it's just my extremitys that get cold and the rest of me gets too hot. Can't win.

Work was OK just got on with it really. Didn't have much time to get annoyed. Sometimes thats for the better.

Who likes fermented vegetables? What are fermented vegetables? Do they mean like picked onions? I need clarification on this.

I might go to bed and read my shit girl book. I can't think of anything else to do. I am just (once again) waiting for the day to end. I think they are playing Orbital (or someone ripping off Orbital) on this stupid diet program. Orbital are great.

Apparently eating food at exactly the same time every day is a thing. Who can do that? I guess people with proper jobs.

I think I am going to be abandoned later in the week. I just haven't been told yet. I can see it coming though. I would plan something exciting but I don't have anyone to go out and play with.  I will more than likely just lay in bed being a bit frightened on my own. It's that or get drunk. I don't want to get drunk. Nothing good ever comes of that.

Gabby has diverse bacteria in her poo. Who knew?

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