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January 23rd

There is a creaky floorboard that is new. I might fall though the floor on one of my night time half awake piss walks. I might tumble down and down and awake in a new better place where I have amazing adventures. I might.

I am listening to John Coltrane. It's ok. It would be super annoying if you were in the wrong mood. It kind of sounds how my head is.

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Ok. I will take them home then.

Aw don't take them home.

It was much more fun last time. I need to find a different reason so I can get back into it. I went looking for 'The Scales of She who shall not be named...' but they weren't there. They had been ghosted. Appropriate.

Watched Bohemian Rhapsody. It's utter shit. Very watchable but still utter shit. How has this been nominated for an Oscar?

Played a bit of Onrush just because I don't have to concentrate and I can listen to podcasts.

I am getting a lot of 3's for food at the moment.

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