Pointless Walks......

What am I expecting to happen here? What is my best-case scenario? Is it going to be a romance for the ages? No, it’s going to be GREAT then ok then an absolute nightmare. I would imagine that they are less interested in me than I am in them. Plus, I am nearly dead. No-one wants someone that’s nearly dead. They pretend they do. But they really don’t. They just want you to drift from nearly-dead into actual dead. Then they can stop caring and start living. So, what I am expecting? They are drifting away but they will drift back, then away and then back again. Like a rowboat tied to the side of a local park. If I get in the rowboat and drift down the river all that will happen is that I will fall in. I can’t swim very well so I will be a drowner. I have already drowned 4 times. I can’t afford to drown again. I am running out of breath. There is no breath left in me. So, what am I expecting? I am being very needy. I have no right to be very needy. They were needy and I w...

  PART 1    Well that sounds like an idea. I'm in a tricky situation because I'm never really gonna talk about her behind her back. But just give it space, be kind and don't put any stress or pressure on her.   No no of course not and I don’t expect you too   I just wanted someone to go to who I knew wouldn’t tell the world    But yeah thats the last thing I want to do to her   Also: may I ask how you acquired my number?   I won't even tell her we are talking because that would bother her. My loyalty is always gonna be to her but I like you a lot and I think you would be kind to her so...   I asked for it is how I will delete it if it bothers you   Sorry was having my tea Mhm i get you, I do want to be there for her I really do No no its alright I just wondered is all haha not bothered   No worries. As I said just give her a bit of space and see what happens. If you want to chat I am always knocking about and I can keep a secre...