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The Eternal

And then they all stopped talking. What had they been saying? It was definitely something to do with me. I don’t mind. It just makes me laugh to myself. I need to laugh. Even if it’s just an internal thing. 
The guy with no hair is round again. Buzz buzz buzz . You open the window but the wasp won’t flay out. He would be better off out there in the world but he would sooner be banging into windows.
You bump into the criminal by accident. What do you say? Does he know I know? He must do. He knows the environment. He knows what’s happening. What do you say? You say ‘alright’ and then you move past. You are glad you don’t have your child with you. That would have been weird. 
You go back through history. You see all the relics and ignore them for plastic hiding in cabinets. 
You are melting. Your skin is coming off. The machine won’t work. Why won’t the machine work?
And you try and you try and you try and everyone is looking at you and you are melting. 
And suddenly it works. And you are having to explain how putting music on your phone adds the album covers over and over and over. And you are melting. But success.
But there is a man who wants to buy the impossible and pay for something that does not exist.
So you wait and you wait and someone else waits. And eventually you have had enough and you walk away and the man decides he doesn’t want to spend his afternoon looking through lego and vanishes. 
And you are still melting and your skin is still falling off.
On another day there are people waiting in a queue for you. You are helping them the best you can but you are not the only one that can help them. It seems that they are all waiting for you. Everyone else is wandering in circles. Round and round. Following each other. You are standing still.
And you are promised a feast. All you can eat. Anything you like. But there is only one thing there. One thing that you don’t really want. If you did want it you can only have one little bit.
Why does no-one sell Key Lime pie? What is the issue here?
Eject anything that is not needed. Leave it floating in space. It will spin and spin. The eternal.

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