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Failing at Sudoku / Failing at Life.

I keep failing at Sudoku.
It looks like I have finished but there is always a number out of place.
I thought of a good way to describe being at work.
It’s like going to a party that someone has HAD to invite you to but never expects you to actually turn up. That’s how it is. You are just standing in the corner drinking through a straw and watching everyone else have fun. They kind of know you are there and make a token effort to come over and have a chat but they eventually give up and don’t notice when you have leave.
That’s how it is. 
The music is terrible. It’s the very worst music from the 60’s,70’s,80’s and 90’s punctuated by afverts for things that you don’t want. I am not the demographic for this. 
Oh, the electronic scheduling system has mailed me. That will be the best interaction I have all day.
I have had a headache for 3 days now. It’s the kind of headache you get when you have not drunk enough water. I have drunk enough water. I have drunk all the water. There is no water left. Maybe it is a brain tumour. Maybe this will all be over soon. Oh well. 
So other things. 
Watched Scream and Scream 2 last night. Everything from the 90’s looks old and out of date. I suppose it is old and out of date. I think of the 90’s as only a short time ago. It wasn’t it was 20 years ago. It didn’t look all blurry and low def when I was there. It looked just the same as it does now only a bit better and without the worry that everything is going to fall apart at any moment. Anyhow Scream was OK. Scream 2 was less ok but still OK. I will attempt 3 & 4 next.
Games. 
Judgment is good. Liking that.
Control is also good. 
Erica might be what gave me a headache. It’s a film that you make choices in. It’s alright.
Have bought hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of Switch games. Have spent the world. Have played 0 Switch games.
Two weeks to Borderlands. My second favourite series of all time.
OOO there might be an argument. That would brighten up the day. I can sit back with popcorn and enjoy.
I came in the car today as it keeps running out of power and the last time I tried to charge it I broke the blinds. The dirty disgusting blinds that we had a 3 hour conversation about how to clean. We have not cleaned them once. Not never. What was once a pristine white is now a dirty yellow with dark marks on it. I don’t want to have a car. As soon as I don’t have a car I will need to commute again. This is how my world works. The car has been a good car. It’s about 15 years old (or older) and it has never given me any problems. God bless the car. You will be missed. 
Camped in the bag garden last week. That was quite fun. Apart from the kids that had a party till about 2am. It was (and this is something I think about a lot) very tempting to bring out a load of speakers and start playing Napalm Death at EVOL. If I didn’t think I would annoy the world I would do this. I has to be done. I am pretty sure I have enough stuff to go louder than them. Amps and speakers and speakers and amps. Games without frontiers. 
There is someone at work today in slippers. If management ever bothered to turn up at the weekend they might say something. Probs not.
I have only been here an hour. It feels like the forever. Time thief.
Oh reggae. Oh it Stevie Wonder. We have had this and Blondie in the last 80 minutes. 
I have to take my glasses off to see things that are closer these days. That’s super weird and something old people do. I nearly bought a flat cap the other day as well. It was nearly £50. They had a really, really nice coat for £300 as well. My priorities are changing.
OO everyone has gone for a walk at the same time. What a surprise. It’s almost like they just think they can abandon me to the day. It’s fair enough. I am used to it. I am used to most things.
The person in charge today is someone I have never seen before.  That’s about right. 
An important announcement from management. Copied and pasted.
The choice is yours but I would advise that you don't buy anything from the choc/crisp machine. A lot of the products are coming out unfit to eat. I have tried to contact the but no reply I will ring again on Monday.
This is what they do. They deal with the really big issues. They are not so worried about people walking out on a daily basis. They are not too concerned by the odd suicide or very dodgy criminal they have employed. The snack machine is the big issue here. 
At least I can get my eyes tested for free. That will be fun. Love me an eye test. They rush you in and throw loads of lenses at you and before your eyes have had time to adjust they throw another lens in. Then they decide and you have to wear the wrong glasses (that for some reason cost £300 for plastic) for the next 3 years or so or until you can afford to do it again. I got two pairs of glasses last time. One of them literally (and I use this word correctly) gives me a headache the moment I put them on.
Happy days. 
Someone just asked me about being on my own in the corner. I told him the party thing. I don’t think he got it. This is probably why no-one likes me. Oh well. He will definitely tell someone this. This is why I told him. 
Now TV has over 1000 movies. Just in case you didn’t know. I mean you might not. They don’t mention it every five minutes do they?
The adverts now sound like they are in German. That’s how much they have effected my brain (should that be affected? Who cares).
Punctuating brackets
But the full stop will be on the outside if the brackets contain only part of the full sentence (as these do). Put a comma outside the brackets (as demonstrated here), when those brackets appear at the end of a clause within the sentence.

Might read some Japanese for a bit. Learn about how to do a Sudoku right.




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