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The Haze

The medication I take to sleep loses me the first part of the morning. Everything happens around me and I stumble through demands as best I can. If I don't take medication I don't sleep and the whole day is this. Plus I am in a bad mood which makes other people suffer. I am awaiting the fallout. The fallout is coming. I know you so well. Attack Attack Attack. You don't have the skill set to fall back. You don't know empathy. I remember you when you were me. You weren't perfect. I remember. Too many people are pretending to be happy and full of fun at this time of morning. I look at them and I can see through the window. They are dying inside. We are all dying inside. Even you are dying inside. It happens. We are not butterflies. We are not waiting to be reborn. There is always dirt on the glass. There is always a fog. I clean and I clean and it doesn't go away. Then I realise. The fog is on my eyes. I am clouding over. I have destroyed by back. I hav...

Ice Skating

Ok click click click.  Back once again for the renegade master, d for damager power to the people. It’s Saturday and it’s raining and I have come to work in the car which is odd. My washing is not getting any dryer out there. New people. Out of everyone in the building (well on this floor anyhow) I have been here by far the longest. Drifted.  There is nothing to do but recreate madness, but I am eating pizza tonight so that’s something to look forward to.  There are 3 games I want to buy. I can’t afford any of them. June is the worst month for spending money on other people. I don’t like June. At least after that it’s all ok until Christmas.  Stop talking about your baby. Your baby does not define you. What were you before the child was born? Just empty space and some vapour? You were more than that surely. And you are the best rapper I have ever met. Baby baby baby baby food. Watched ‘You were never really here again last night. Great. Not as great as...