Green

I love you inside your green cardy

I love you without your green cardy

I love you inside your green cardy

I love you outside your green cardy

Take it off

Send it to me

Wrap it up

Christmas Tree

In your green cardigan

In your green cardigan

Keep you hot inside your green cardy

Keep you cool inside your green cardy

Keep you safe inside your green cardy

Keep you warm inside your freen cardy

Rip it up

Send it to me

Burn it down

Let me see

In your green cardigan

In your green cardigan

In your green cardigan

In your green cardigan

Saturday has become every Saturday now.

That just happened. I have essentially been everso gently shafted. But hey. This is my life.

It’s May now. April was a bad month for spending. I need to stop that. I am not sure if I can. You can’t dry the rain. I just need to enjoy the things I have. I have pretty much given up drinking properly so who knows what I am capable of.

I have been left a big bag of sweets in my drawer. As my diet has consisted mainly of sweets for the last month this has been most welcome. They have all gone. It’s 8:12.

We (they) have started bitching about other people. They have nothing else to say. Nothing to contribute. I wonder if this is what they do when they go out and have an exciting time. I don’t feel like I am missing out so much.

The weather is nice but it keeps spoiling everything by raining. Wham are on the radio. I don’t know how I feel about that. I have spoken to someone who’s name I cannot say.

I am not doing anything taxing just straight work. I cannot manipulate my day. This is not so good.

Managed to watch Freefire before work. I have tried to do this before. It’s good and then it’s just shooting for an hour. It’s difficult to invest. Other people love it. I won’t watch it again unless I am forced to under pain of death.

Other films I have watched recently.

Avengers : Endgame –not as good as I wanted it to be. Still pretty good and I got very (too excited for it). I had a weird overload of emotions for it. 3D was terrible.

Dumbo : Enjoyed it a lot. 

Eighth Grade : Enjoyed it a lot. She is incredible.

Dragged Across Concrete : Liked it. I like the guys other films more but this is still good and different. Too long though. I can see why people don’t get it.

Ant Man and the Wasp : Not as good as I remember it being.

Re-animator : Also not as good as I remember it being. Short. There is apparently a longer version that I need to watch. I will give it time. 

Loads more but nothing I can remember so nothing special.

Games :

Have borrowed Days Gone. It’s ok. Would be fun to take it slowly but I have to give the game back so trying to power through it. Average.

Playing through all the Uncharted games. Done 1 and most of 2. Enjoying quite a bit.

Still playing the Division 2. On and off. The last mission is terrible. You don’t seem to be able to co-op it though. It’s making me bounce.

World War Z. It’s supposed to be like Left 4 Dead. It is. Like a poundland version. It’s alright.

Need to get back on Assassins Creed as well. Havent played that for a while and need to get back to it as it’s very good. 

Borderlands : Was my favorite game prior to Dark Souls. It’s quite fun to go through it again. It’s still a bit glitch though. 

Have also bounced off Sekiro after finally beating a boss and then the Playstation breaking. I will get back to it though. 

I just keep getting more and more and it takes me away from what I am playing. I wish they would stop making product. I don’t seem to be able to stop buying them so they need to stop making them. 

See also records. 

Worst thing about records is that I am rebuying things I already have. It’s not about the music. Its about the thing. Having the thing. Why do I want the thing.

I know the answer to this and feel like I have gone into it before here so I will just leave it there. 

First good song. ‘Missing’ so of course the phone will ring. This song makes me sad. Reasons.

And I do. Like the deserts miss the rain.

Lazy grey, yet quite complete.

Decorated for you to eat.

In a place you call your own.

Watch me smile as I watch you drown.

20 minutes. I need to eat something good for me. Salmon I guess.  I can put it on while I walk the dog. That will be super exciting. Waterworld sounds exciting. Can’t go there (even if I wanted to) I have far too many scabs on me. 

Now there is a debate about makeup which is basically cheating for girls.  Good cheating but still cheating. Girls – you don’t need to do that. Just be. What do I know? I know nothing. I am the ignorance. 

There are terrible adverts on the radio, Terrible. As we are going into a bank holiday they are even more terrible than usual. Cars and holidays. They are credit brokers and not lenders. This is important to know. 

I am going to spend my morning peeling stickers off a book. That is how exciting it is right now. 

Just wrote a 3 page rap on someone notepad. 

It was rubbish but it passed the time. 

Slowly.

Welcome. Welcome.

This is sun. 

The clocks say welcome home.

Slowly growing forwards.

Never looking back.

Seeing things through dark clouds.

Forever upwards.

Forever upwards.

Forever upwards.

I have nothing to give. I am typing for the sake of typing. This is why I stopped doing this in the first place.  I wish I hadn’t eaten my sweets.

I have spoken to one person in the last 67 minutes. I hate speaking to people but anything is better than this. I would like a really good argument right about now. Of course when I am having the really good argument I will not want to be in it. Can’t be happy. Never happen.

3 days off soon so looking forward to doing nothing. Going to see Shazam which will be the highlight. The rest of it will just be passing the time. Just passing the time. 

Oh another car advert. Incredible,

Voted on Friday. For once it wasn’t a massive waste of time and the idiots didn’t win. It was quite fun. 

I need to buy some paint for outside the house. I could do this at the weekend but I will have to have a 3 hour argument about colour. I might just order the paint and sneak it in and then just do it when no-one is in. That will be the best way. 

I am going to try an look busy for a bit by looking at some pieces of paper. It seems to work for management so I am hoping that rolls for everyone. 

I am very tired. 

I just did a stupid drawing. 

The things we do to pass the time. 

I wonder I can steam these stickers off?

I have a big test tomorrow; I can't go out tonight.

I don’t like giraffes; I am going to eat one.

I have a good job; I am going to tell everyone. 

I will definitely forget what a semi colon is used for; I will use them all the time. 

The font on this is different; I can’t be bothered to change it back. 

Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof?

I am going to eat my banana now. I have already had my coffee drink so if I do that its all downhill from here. 

Oh its feel good holiday weekend apparently .Why did no one tell me?

I have enough.

I have more than enough.

Why does it always feel.

Like I don’t have anything.

What is wrong with me?

I am not happy; I will buy more stuff.

I have lived without ‘First and last and always’ on vinyl for forever. Why is it the most important thing in the world to me right now? Why?

I already have it on CD. Why do I want it again?

I would look at the internet but I have read it all. There is nothing new on there. The secret to the internet as well is that it’s one big advert. Even the bit’s that aren’t adverts are adverts. To me. They are adverts to me. 

Is this what we do until we die? Consume. 

When I nearly died I realised I didn’t want loads of stuff. 

When I didn’t die I realised I wanted more stuff.

Stuff.

Stuff.

What will happen to it all?

It is not bringing me joy while I am alive?

Will it bring anyone else joy when I am dead?

Probs not. One big bonfire.

You do not know me but I am the night.

You do not know me but I am the right…

…one for you…

It’s true.

That’s all I’m here to do.

But I am the night.

You can buy Metric albums a lot more cheaply if you get them shipped from America. Who knew?

Well I did of course.

Baby baby. I am dancing with a stranger.

What is this?

Get it outside my ears.

The first side of The Pixies ‘Surfer Rosa’ is flawless. In fact right up to ‘Where is my mind’ which is on side two. It’s still pretty good after that as well. It’s a lot better than Doolittle. 

I will at some point review all The Fall albums and put them in order. That is something I might do. It is a bit of effort though. This Nations Saving Grace is obviously the best. I really like Bend Sinister as well. After that it’s effort. Perverted by Language, Hex Eduction Hour etc.

Just had someone shout at me. How much fun. I didn’t do very well with it. I am a bit annoyed with myself for that. I am usually quite good at these things. 

Terrible music persists. 

I am looking forward to going home and eating food. That will be a highlight.  Compulsory Days Gone. I might just decide to sack it off and bring it back. Might buy it when it’s cheaper. 

I am already planning my next purchase. 

‘Thanks Mia’

Nearly 11:11 – make a wish. 

Making small talk with someone I don’t really know is not very me. Enjoy the silence. 

We are nearly in the golden hour and the music is still very poor.  It would be exciting if they would put some Sunn O)))) on or something which would sound to the people much how Little Mix sound to me. I think they would more than likely just thing that the air conditioning was broken or something.

I don’t like this music; so I put on some Carcass.