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March 12th

So much noise. Always something going around in my head. Usually nonsense. It keeps me awake.

Got up at 2am this morning because I had a landslide of nothing in there sliding around, The Divison 2 had unlicked to flopped around on that for a bit. It's a squint fest at the moment. Cannot see what's happening half the time. I need to spend at least 94 hours with this game. I hope I can adapt.

Went to see Captain Marvel. It's half good and half rubbish. Far too space alieny for me but she is fantastic. 3 G's. Also bought 2 records one of which I like and once of which is rubbish and I shouldn't have bought in the first place. The guy that I used to work with there is STILL there and he is always really pleased to see me as we got on so well back then. That job would have been an amazing part time job. Full time it sucked ass though. The only thing that made it tolerable was theft, drugs and getting pissed. One of which I got sacked for which led to the end of days.

After Captain Marvel I thought we could go and have a nice dinner but unfortunately that was turned into walking around a shopping centre for 2 hours where there is only one shop I am interested in and I have no money anyhow so thanks. It was not fun.

The end of days.

It's super rainy and super windy and its terrible. It's the worst weather in the world.

Played some Mario, some more Division 2 and a bit of Dark Souls (fuck the Bed of Chaos, time wasting bastard). Watched a bit of telly and now I need to find something to do to stop my head from exploding. I need some sleep.



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