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February 5th

Finally getting to the end of Daredevil which I started watching about 10 years ago. I have also finally finished Sabrina. All the uses of the word finally would suggest I am not enjoying them very much. This is true. Better than watching The Undatables though which I find to be exploitative and seedy.

Nothing much else happening. Things are grinding by. The worst month is getting closer to the end which means it's all up until December where everything falls apart again. Thats a good 10 months of things just being on the right side of terrible.

Liking a lot of Ambient music at the moment. Not sure what that says about me.

Finished rereading the first two Vinyl Detective books to remind me for when the new one comes out in May. Can't be bothered to read the third one just yet as I only read it a while ago. I might do though later.

Roofing man has quoted £900 which is nicely adding £100 on to what he told me it would be. I have no way to pay this but have to get it done. I imagine I will get no help at all as per. Might have to go back to being a cam girl.

Trying to eat a little bit more healthily but there is a lot of bread about and there seems to be a magic person who brings in a lot of cakes, crisps and chocolate but no real food ever. Not to worry. I would imagine that after the end of March we will have to live on nettles and dirt.

'England my country the home of the free, such miserable weather
But England's as happy as England can be
Why cry?'


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