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December 27th

Work was ok.

Have discovered a quarter of my persona I want to live in. I don't think I can. Y'know bipolar and all that.

Checked my bank balances.

Bad idea. I really can't spend anything on anything ever again. Ever. No really. Not even that thing.

Came home and there is nothing to add beyond that. Couldn't sleep last night. Had a dog laying on me and he wouldn't move. I was told I was evil for wanting to move him. I got up and played Tomb Raider which was ok. Going to play it a bit more tonight.

I think I can hear dogs barking somewhere but it could be a hyperactive maniac having the worlds longest bath.

Uncakeable !!!!

Tried to find a podcast but they are all the year end best of podcasts that are on the whole self indulgent and over long. I will do my best of things right now for you.

Film - You were never really here.
Music - Snail Mail - Lush
TV Show - No Offence
Game - Dragon Quest / Spiderman / The one I will have forgotten from the first half of the year
Game that's old that I played - Dark Souls 2
Wrestling Match - Andrade 'Cien' Almas Vs Johnny Gargano : people ask me why I watch wrestling. There is a long and complicated answer but the short one is that most of the time it's rubbish but the right match can 'get' me like nothing else. This match 'got' me like nothing else.

So there you go. There are things I will have forgotten about because that's the nature of these things. The things at the end are more important than the things at the beginning.


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