Skip to main content

December 18th

Christmas party at school today. Couldn't avoid it because for some stupid reason they had it in the day rather than at night.

Darius pretended to DJ, but all he was doing was selecting stuff from a drop down menu. He tried to make it sound all amazing and stuff, but I knew he was just using beat matching software,  It's not that easy to make Sun 0))) kewl.

As usual I tried to keep myself to myself and just hang out with Russ. We sat in a corner people watching and reading Electronic Gaming Monthly. Russ laughed at a picture of Clara Bow. Russ is an idiot Clara Bow is literally the best looking person ever. Most people think she is Louise Brooks. I may have said this before. Most people are idiots.

Darius was trying to mash up some Skrillex and Pigbros on his laptop. Darius was failing. Triss walked in with her little gang and came over to our corner.

'Move Jiggleypuff' she said

'We want to be in this corner. People cannot see us here and we can drink and smoke and do stuff'

I just looked at the floor. Russ just looked at the floor.

Triss pushed me out the way and I slipped. She also managed to drop the bottle of Remy Martin Louis XIII Cognac she was swigging from.

It fell to the floor and cracked and smashed.

'That's your fault Squirrel' she screamed at me like a World War 2 airplane.

Just before I picked up the broken bottle by the neck and rammed it into her face the only thing I could think of was what a good film 'Scott Pilgrim vs the World is'.

Six days till Christmas. 

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Penultimate

This is not a suicide note.  I am not allowed to do that. That would make me the bad guy. If things were a bit different though I would deffo be eating toast in the bath. I hope I get ill again. That would be perfect. The only problem with getting ill last time was that I got better. I was ready. I was ‘at peace’. Then, as now, I have had enough. I am always tired, I always hurt. I am never shown any love and I don’t really do anything I enjoy. All the things I am supposed to enjoy either I don’t or I get stopped from doing by other people who are supposed to care about me. I am now old enough to know I will never get what I want in my life. This is it, my best days are behind me and I wasted them on making do. The sun comes out and I get sunburn in the hope that it will fix my skin. In the hope it will make me better. It just makes my skin fall off in different ways and hurt from a new angle. I look for stuff to fill the box I live in. The space is getting smaller and ...

Carnivorous Rainbows

 The fact that I now take prescription pain killers for non-prescription reasons is giving me a permanent hangover. It’s like the sun is shining in my eyes all the time. Luckily, I have sunglasses. It’s like when you are driving down a beautiful road with the desert on both sides and some plants you can’t identify walking past slowly like they are going somewhere fast. Then suddenly your body remembers all that you drank last night. ALL OF IT. All at once. It’s like hearing the voice of your ex saying things she would never have said to you. Things she would never have said before. Things she would never have said. When you have a constant headache its like you don’t have a headache at all. It is the constant. There is no other form. I have tinnitus. It’s always there. Too many sticking my head inside massive guitar amplifier for no apparent reason. Point is, I don’t notice it unless I remember to. A constant high frequency whine. I keep thinking about not taking them. Ther...