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Some words

I need somewhere to store these and I can't be bothered to write them down. I need them soon for reasons....


I can’t help you. You don’t want to be helped. You wont help yourself.
I can’t fix you. You are not broken. There is nothing wrong here.
I can’t argue with you. You are always in the right. I am nothing.
I can’t understand you. You speak quietly in other languages.
I can’t care for you. You have other people to do that.
I can’t tell you. You wont be told. There is nothing to hear.
I can’t wake you. You need to rest. You need the night.
I can’t reason with you. There is no reason here.
I can’t catch you. You wont take my hand. You want to fall.
All I can do is love you as best I can and wait for the end.
Then I will love you more.

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das ist gut
das ist Teekanne
Mickey Mouse
das ist gut
das ist perfekt
Mickey Mouse
das ist gut
das ist blau Haar
Mickey Mouse
das ist gut
das ist gut
Mickey Mouse
das ist Prostituierte
Mickey Mouse
Mickey Mouse

                                                             ******************************
a ricominciare tutto
Perché ci vuole
Se distruggiamo
a ricominciare tutto
Il sonno è l'interruttore di arresto
Se solo potessi dormire
a ricominciare tutto
Perché ci vuole
ti perdono
Mi perdonerai?
a ricominciare tutto
Dimenticalo
Shattered Memories
a ricominciare tutto
Perché ci vuole ….

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So I am that girl.
That girl because you want me to be.
That girl because she doesn’t exist.
That girl because she couldn’t exist.
That girl because she shouldn’t exist?
That girl because you want me to be.
That girl because it makes you happy.
That girl because I am kind of lonely.
Would I want to be that girl?
Would you want to be with that girl?
She sounds ideal, she sounds like me.
She sounds like a made up kinda fantasy,
To good to be true.
That’s because she isn’t.
Too good to be true.
Thats because she’s me.
Because I am that girl.
Because that’s what you want me to be.

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