Skip to main content

January 13th

I hate wind.

It's the worst weather. Worse than snow and rain and sun and fog. The worst. It causes nothing but problems.

So 9am on the roof in the rain reaffixing the tarpaulin to the leaky roof. Y'know the roof that no-one will come and fix apart from the creepy man who called me poor. The creepy man will do it only he's not allowed to because he is creepy.

More wind.

Cleaned two weeks of your shit out of the kitchen (again) and am pretty sure a lot of it is already back. Cooked dinner which was utter shit because the microwave busted in the middle of it. The discovered you had broken the washing machine (again) because you insist of sticking those fucking paper towel things in it. Y'know the ones that break it.

Walked your dog because we wouldn't want you to get dressed today would we?

Came back and fixed the washing machine. Nearly drowned in the amount of water in the kitchen but cleaned most of it up and made sure your clothes were properly washed and dried.

You then decide to complain that the floor is wet.

Had a bath, but only a shit bath because the man that put the bathroom in has done something unfathomable that means the bath leaks into the kitchen now. I like baths. I can't have nice baths. I could have nice baths before we got the bathroom all done. Now it looks ok but you can't use it.

It's now 6:12pm and the wind is blowing again.

Fuck my life. Nothing nice has happened today and this is pretty much the norm.

I look forward to being shouted at by idiots at work tomorrow and then coming home to my parents who tell me how shit I am.

Like I said fuck my life.


Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Penultimate

This is not a suicide note.  I am not allowed to do that. That would make me the bad guy. If things were a bit different though I would deffo be eating toast in the bath. I hope I get ill again. That would be perfect. The only problem with getting ill last time was that I got better. I was ready. I was ‘at peace’. Then, as now, I have had enough. I am always tired, I always hurt. I am never shown any love and I don’t really do anything I enjoy. All the things I am supposed to enjoy either I don’t or I get stopped from doing by other people who are supposed to care about me. I am now old enough to know I will never get what I want in my life. This is it, my best days are behind me and I wasted them on making do. The sun comes out and I get sunburn in the hope that it will fix my skin. In the hope it will make me better. It just makes my skin fall off in different ways and hurt from a new angle. I look for stuff to fill the box I live in. The space is getting smaller and ...

The Eternal

And then they all stopped talking. What had they been saying? It was definitely something to do with me. I don’t mind. It just makes me laugh to myself. I need to laugh. Even if it’s just an internal thing.  The guy with no hair is round again. Buzz buzz buzz . You open the window but the wasp won’t flay out. He would be better off out there in the world but he would sooner be banging into windows. You bump into the criminal by accident. What do you say? Does he know I know? He must do. He knows the environment. He knows what’s happening. What do you say? You say ‘alright’ and then you move past. You are glad you don’t have your child with you. That would have been weird.  You go back through history. You see all the relics and ignore them for plastic hiding in cabinets.  You are melting. Your skin is coming off. The machine won’t work. Why won’t the machine work? And you try and you try and you try and everyone is looking at you and you are melting.  An...